As I dance amid the flow of the push and pull of life, I am confronted with diverse beliefs from moment to moment, from definitions of what is beauty, to ideas on what to eat, wear, and what is truth, etc., and so I am going to share my thoughts with you today. You may disagree and decide to argue and “prove” me wrong. I do not care. It is an idea I laugh at now. But arriving here was not without its challenges. Choosing to NOT be authentic was an interesting experiment, so was the choice to take steps towards shedding the old and stepping into my authenticity.
I have found that being inauthentic arises when we do not want to feel the awkwardness of confrontation. As one begins the journey of self-discovery, we are confronted with a buffet of ideas. It can become rather confusing. Choose and pick your poison. After all we as a collective and individually chose ALL the themes we wanted to experience underneath the magnetic holographic fields of Gaia. We even chose our heroes, leaders, and villains.
When source manifested each tiny fractal piece that we are, it did so with love and for a purpose. We matter; matter being the key word here on many levels.
Matter is mother. I think it is important to our path of self-discovery to incorporate and return back to the awareness of the body. So much of the difficulties we experience are because of all the beliefs surrounding the body. We are loved, supported and beautiful in ALL that we are.
As I type this, the time is 3:33 this brings to mind DNA. Our body is a living library of information, readily available to those who desire to access its pearls. Our body can reveal who we are, our personal inner truth, through our senses. The issue lies in our having rejected it, solely on the basis that it is transitory. We are in union with ALL things.
Now, information is light. Light however has an unnatural aspect to it. Too much time under the sun causes a sunburn. Therefore we learn and appreciate the ebb and flow, the push and pull, the dance of energies and the exchange that occurs, between the light and the dark. Especially the realization that even the concept of light and dark is an illusion we chose to explore.
As I peruse the social news feeds, I am exposed to so much information. I feel it is awesome that the mind can become exposed to information regarding what is healthy versus what is not? Its diverse ideas, the pros and the cons. In all areas, from wealth, health, spirituality, sex and relationships. Yet this information can drown the sound of the inner voice.
Information about how food is handled and processed, its level of toxicity that has been hidden for decades is being continuously exposed. But here is the kicker, what is the difference between eating an apple that has been sprayed with pesticides, versus an organic apple that has been planted in radioactive soil and fed with contaminated water? Because let’s face it, the Earth is contaminated. A construct we as a collective chose to experience.
I am only expressing a thought here, on how easy it is to get carried away with ideas, new and old, and therefore become fearful and angry.
What is healthy when exploring sex, how to achieve the best orgasm, make him last longer, how to feel sexier, blah blah blah, this is an area that can become very messy, very quickly, and not in the good dirty messy yummy kind of way. I am speaking of the guilt and shame that arises. Sex should be playful without judgment, and a means to explore the self further.
This fearfulness spills over to food where not everyone is able to afford to spend on organic products and not everyone has space to plant their own food, and although these are once again restrictions based on choice, it also presents an opportunity to create changes. And not by entering the shame, blame and guilt game, that is why the image of the scapegoat, the devil, the demon, exists. They represent the sum of all our darkness and fears, swept neatly under the rug.
For the carnivores, eating meat, can get us in touch with and reveal our shadow and its predatory nature. And yes this can also extend to the vegans/vegetarians out there, in that eating fruits and vegetables are very much alive as well, and feel pain; they just don’t bleed red, yet we consume its energy, without a thought. I think in the end its all about how the energy exchange is honored and how we expand and evolve as a result.
See for person A, meat may indeed be harmful to their system. While person B, may require incorporating this form of protein into their system, until the requirement is outgrown. Only your body can teach you the way, if you listen.
Now the bankruptcy of our nation, the “lack” of jobs and financial support. I feel that it is because as we awaken, we are confronted with our shadowy greed and lust for power and how that has devalued the loving exchange of energy, but this experience can also shed light on our yearning to build an environment that does not exclude money, but does not become the sole form of exchange. Hence allowing us to tap into our creativity, taking up our staff of power and creating solutions.
What are the definitions behind the beliefs I have carried? How does the body feel? What does it tell me?
Now I am only sharing the way my mind ponders on certain topics, and how really taking the time to listen, appreciate and love the garments of Gaia upon my bones, has helped me to step into my authenticity. It has taught me to see the ways in which in the past I have so readily absorbed other people’s ideas without as much as getting in touch with its five senses, to see if it aligns with my personal truth. Lately so much of my journey has been to release what no longer serves.
The highest truth is that all paths, are true for you in the moment, you choose to accept it. How you expand, evolve and honor it, is all in the process of embracing and then releasing.
We are uniquely fashioned for a reason. Every “thing” outside is a deception, only meant to reveal what is concealed within. I feel that the more I own up to my shadow, the more light I can hold, not so as to remain in the light, but to descend into the shadowy depths of this body, forgive and integrate the being I am. Oh and when I say this body, I am not speaking of the physical body only. As we balance the physical not so much to transcend it, but to enter deeper into it. Remember, there is NO out there. Think in terms of the Russian Matroskhy Dolls. You get to the true essence of self, by going in, in, in…
None of us are truly free, until all the chains that restrict the flow of love to dance wildly and free in all its glory have been released. I have observed that the more readily I am able to allow the space for myself to be, that rather than be critical, CHOOSE instead to be DISCERNING, of what is truth for ME, I am therefore able to extend the same to others.
A process that has been challenging and exciting, but in union with matter, I have found that being able to embrace and release in equal measure is LOVE. All things have its season.